This evening I'm listening to "God Only Knows" by the Beach Boys. It is such a beautiful, innocent, yet sincere song. With my thoughts especially during this last week, the song makes me think more of friends instead of love. This week I have run the whole gamut of emotions, anywhere from being down, sad, depressed, furious with nearly anyone (even though generally undeserved, but don't worry--it wasn't toward anyone who would be reading this!), ecstatically happy, thankful, mellow...you get the drift. A lot of it might be hormones, but another big part of it is due to my disappointments with people and my social life lately. However, this song, especially after a dear old friend, Helen, and I hung out today, reminded me of those once in a lifetime friends that "God only knows what I'd be without you." It's so wonderful to still have someone who will let me cry to her and hold me and accept me for who I am at this very moment. I guess the biggest part of my misery of the past few days was due to feeling like all of those people were very far away. Cara and Kelly, I have to tell you that God only knows what I'd be without you. It might have taken over a semester for me to figure out how much a girl needs people like that, but I'm so thankful that you've been in my life and that you haven't left even though I've moved. You are truly once in a lifetime friends, and I would rather lose a piece of myself than lose you two. Because if I lost your friendships, I know I would lose a vital part of me. I could never thank you enough for being there, being you, caring, and loving, but I wanted to at least say something to try to express how much I appreciate you.

Thanks also to the friends who maybe haven't been around for long enough to be that close, but your kindness also has been so touching and encouraging. (Martha, you come to mind.) Thank you.