Monday, November 03, 2008

Sometimes I feel like pulling away because I feel like people don't care as much or put as much in as I do.  I know I don't see everything others do, but that doesn't make it hurt any less.

I want to be a friend who gives people the benefit of the doubt; I would hope to receive the same from a friend, but it's so hard sometimes.

I've been upset about this for so long.

4 comments:

crackers and cheese said...

I'm sad for you Britt :( One of the qualities that I admire and love about you is how giving you are to your friends. But with a friendship, that giving should be somewhat reciprocal, maybe not every season, in a friendship someone may need more than another at certain times, but it sounds like you've really been hurt by someone and you feel like they don't care about you :( Maybe giving them the benefit of the doubt isn't always the right thing to do, but neither is assuming that they don't care. Gosh, these things are so delicate, but could you see yourself somehow addressing this with your friend? You're really worth keeping around, and if they recognize that and see what you need from them, then hopefully maybe some changes could be made. I don't know, I don't know the situation, but I know that it sucks when you feel like you matter less to a person than they matter to you :(

I'm praying for you. We really need to talk. This week, ok? Let's just make it happen, whatever it takes.

Cara said...

I want to talk this week too. I hope your exam went well last Wednesday. I'll give you a call this afternoon, Love.

Martha Elaine Belden said...

i'm so sorry you're feeling this way, britt :(

i don't know the backstory... and that's probably b/c i've been so crazy busy that i've been a lousy friend... but i'm praying for and thinking about you.

i hope all is resolved and you're back to happy very soon!

Singing Redbird said...

Relationships don't involve score sheets. Don't forget that it's not just about what you say or do, it's the intention. If someone feels like they're obligated to do something, no matter who that person is, it won't be sincere. Perhaps you should feel less obligated by your friends. :) That's my grain of salt. It seems like your expectations of your friends are different from what they're expectations are from you.