Farewell November

I'm finally starting to get used to my new hair.  I haven't quite figured out how to style it yet.  It probably doesn't help that I sleep on it wet, waking with huge cowlicks and fronds of RED sticking every direction.  I have to admit, the day after I cut it, I almost cried.  And I was on the verge of dying it blonde for several days.  I can't say I won't dye it blonde the next go around, but RED is fun for a bit.  I think it taught me, too, to be more confident regardless of what I think others will think.

Other news as of late:  I'm looking for a job.  I may apply to this funky place I love for drinks and appetizers (you have to admit it, anywhere that serves drinks lets you rake in the tips).  I've also thought of some clothing stores and other places...  We'll see.  That's really vague, but I feel a little iffy posting specifics all over the internet. 

Someone very close to me has a lot on their mind so any kind thoughts/prayers would be appreciated.  I know everything will work out okay, but it's hard to remember that when you're in the middle of the situation.  This person totally does not deserve any of what's happening.  But if a few things work out here and there, it could make life a lot easier for him/her.

I've been feeling a little uncentered lately if that makes sense.  Like some things inside are a little off.  I think I need a good day to relax, reflect, and be still.  But alas, finals are around the bend.  I'm pretty burned out with school, too.  : /  I seem to get that way usually right before Christmas for some reason.  Needless to say, I'm really excited for break.  Breaks help me feel real again, haha.  Although the good news is that this semester I've been feeling the most happy, like myself, and like a normal human being (in a good way, not a conformist attitude) that I've felt in years.  

It feels good to be me.  

Other things that feel good:

~Being smiled at by a dear friend.

~Being understood.

~A good back scratch, especially when you haven't had one for a while.

~Laughing   HYSTERICALLY. 

~Sitting on the front porch in the early morning dawn, engulfed in a blanket, sipping hot tea, watching the world wake up.