Lately I've found myself wishing I had someone to come home to (besides roommates).  It's a gray evening, and I feel lonely after having spent the entire weekend with the loveliest, most fun people.  I find myself wishing for a husband, but I know that's not right for me right now.  I almost didn't want to post this for fear of it sounding needy.  But I don't think neediness is the issue.  I think that it's natural for people to want someone to just be there, even if you're not interacting.  I'm not getting married anytime soon; only thinking.  Just knowing the person you love most in the world is there with you in your home sounds like a wonderful way to live.  

a wordless mood,

seen not heard

the stars are too bright

and turn down the dancing melody

so i can simply breathe,

weep and think,

dream of lives that were meant to be.

still, soft, the warmth of your touch,

your voice calm, low, true

incites the force that created the world inside me,

the very power to make the sun 

stand still, and all the earth besides.

i love you,

i don't know what to do.

i wrote it all for you.

Don't Divorce Love.  Love cannot be voted away.

Petition the Supreme Court to invalidate Proposition 8.

"Fidelity": Don't Divorce... from Courage Campaign on Vimeo.

"Moon River"

Somehow there's no song that quite captures the idea of soulmates like this one.

Another song that breathtakingly portrays soulmates:

"I Will Follow You Into the Dark" by Death Cab for Cutie

Sometimes I wonder if there's any magic left in the world.

Those fairytales have to be true for someone.  

Do we have to believe in them first to make them come to life?

On another note, it's magical that Martha is alive, and in pretty good shape.  

I think I believe in angels.  She must have a beast of a guardian angel.  I'm so glad she's alright!

 "Don't be afraid of the space between your dreams and reality. If you can dream it you can make it so." -Belva Davis (thanks, Becky from facebook)

If you haven't checked it out before, you must immediately go to this site.  It will, in middle school vernacular, "rock your world."

http://www.cassettefrommyex.com/

Songs, in my book, are some of the most romantic things you can ever give to someone.

Soulmates

The other day I was in Sephora (a makeup store) of all places looking at shower gel. There's this brand of bath products called 'Philosophy,' and on each bottle they have the 'philosophy' of the particular name. Some are really silly like "Margarita" and the philosophy is a margarita recipe.  

But the one that made my jaw drop was the one on Soulmates. (It was, oddly enough, a grapefruit shower gel.) But it was the most profound writing on soulmates I've ever seen! Here is what it said:  

"you don't need to look for love, you only need to wait, for soulmates always find us. and just like a left foot needs a right foot, we all need a soulmate, and not unlike having two feet on the ground, it helps to be grounded before they arrive. and yet even if your goods are a little damaged, a true soulmate will always love you just the way you are. and remember...soulmates come in all shapes and sizes. they are family, friends, neighbors, co-workers, and at their best they are our true loves."

Stained glass windows spattered with blood and love

I was horrified when I read this article about a shooting at the Tennessee Valley Unitarian Universalist Church in Knoxville, TN. 

When reading most news articles about savage violence, I often leave the article depressed about 'how our world's going to pot' and how there are so few good people left and yadah yadah yadah.

But as I read this article by the Associated Press, I couldn't help but observe the profound love that could not be hidden, even by unthinkable cruelty. A deacon actually stood in front of bullets and died so other people didn't have to die. A husband/father made sure his family was safe and then threw himself back into the possibility of harm so he could pin down the gunman. The gunman was not even injured--the congregation simply pinned him down, removed the gun, and waited for help to arrive.

But what we often fail to remember with acts of violence, or even ignorance or anger, is that these actions bear witness to a void of love. People who exhibit these behaviors often have lived loveless lives for years, and so they turn to inflict evil upon the very thing they need and crave the most.

This is why we must never give up on loving--why love should always be our greatest guide. Life devoid of love is pain, worthlessness, hollow, alone. Whatever our religion, thought, lifestyle, and creed, let us strive to be people who make every effort to keep acts like this from happening, who apply love in early and late stages of need to a world that is so clearly desperate for any kind of loving gesture and touch.